girl

I saw a girl from my window yesterday.

She was walking down the road with a big t-shirt and messy pony tail.
Her chin was lifted just slightly to where the sun revealed every hiding place on her round face. She was not unusually pretty or exotic, her skin was not blemish free. But in that moment, despite last night’s fight with her parents, or the disapproving way her grandfather looks at her when she visits, or the way her stomach will never be quite as flat as her liking,
in that moment,
it is just her and the sun.

There will always be those things that I cannot mentally handle to think or talk about.

Sometimes you have to be a robot.

I wish that my friends would never hurt. I hate seeing it. Sometimes I wish I could just take it all for them, which is dumb and crazy, but I really do. I wish that I could tell them that boys are dumb, and it just really is not worth it.

I don’t understand why some people can just blatantly hurt other people.

I don't really know how I feel about myself

"pain throws your heart to the ground

love turns the whole thing around

no, it won't all go the way it should

but I know the heart of life is good

you know it's nothing new

bad news never had good timing

but then the circle of your friends

will defend the silver lining"

"on a life boat sailin' home

with our drunken hearts and our tired bones

well, I just take one last look around

yeah, and every place feels like a familiar town"

"you are my own sinking ship"

i love songs

lullaby

You can rest easy tonight

Everything is gonna be alright, i promise

Go to sleep and dream of me tonight

Everything may not be perfect, but at least we tried

So tonight

Sweet dreams and sleep tight

I've been trying so hard, can't get you out of my mind

And if this is how it has to be, just promise you won't forget me

And i'll leave you with this lullaby tonight

I know that this hurts you, it hurts me too

I wish there was something i could do to make it easier for you

Sometimes it's tough, too soon to call it love but i wanted to

Yeah i wanted to, but it's too late now to say all the wonderful things that i thought of you

-Chase coy

Today, as I was leaving my 12 hour clinical rotation, a E.R. nurse, a GOOD E.R. nurse said, "Even at the most hectic time today you did not get weak. You are going to make it."

I cried a little when I got to the car. Partially from 4 a.m. exhaustion, and partially from happiness.