I had to say Goodbye to Cole last night. I know in my heart that its really only 'see you later,' but its not the same as 'I'm driving to your house, I'll see you in a minute.' Four hours really isn't that long, and there's Skype and text and calling, but I'm just not good at saying bye.

We have been through so much this year, good and bad. But, in the end, I don't know if I would have made it without him. I love him.

My car is going to have so many miles on it from going to visit everyone