Tuesday, June 14, 2011

shore... different than sure

'maggy and milly and molly and may'

maggy and milly and molly and may  went down to the beach(to play one day)   and maggie discovered a shell that sang  so sweetly she couldn't remember her troubles,and   milly befriended a stranded star  whose rays five languid fingers were;   and molly was chased by a horrible thing  which raced sideways while blowing bubbles:and   may came home with a smooth round stone  as small as a world and as large as alone.   For whatever we lose(like a you or a me)  its always ourselves we find in the sea   E. E. Cummings
You Are Tired (I Think) by e.e. cummings

You are tired,

(I think)

Of the always puzzle of living and doing;

And so am I.

Come with me, then,

And we’ll leave it far and far away—

(Only you and I, understand!)

You have played,

(I think)

And broke the toys you were fondest of,

And are a little tired now;

Tired of things that break, and—

Just tired.

So am I.

But I come with a dream in my eyes tonight,

And I knock with a rose at the hopeless gate of your heart—

Open to me!

For I will show you places Nobody knows,

And, if you like,

The perfect places of Sleep.

Ah, come with me!

I’ll blow you that wonderful bubble, the moon,

That floats forever and a day;

I’ll sing you the jacinth song

Of the probable stars;

I will attempt the unstartled steppes of dream,

Until I find the Only Flower,

Which shall keep (I think) your little heart

While the moon comes out of the sea.

- e.e. cummings

I love e.e. cummings. I always have. I love his parentheses. I also love this:

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."
Bob Marley
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I just got home from an awsome evening of probably the most fun I have had in a long time.
Jacob got home from the Dominican a couple days ago. Thank goodness! I truly, truly adore him to death. He is amazing. So I hung out with him while he told me about his amazing trip and showed me beautiful pictures. Then after, he invited me and Becca to go to this new college bible study study that they were just starting.
I loved the message. It paralleled what we are talking about in church almost exactly. One thing I wish I was better at are: 1. Not getting so embarrassed when I talk. 2. Not letting fear of how something that I say might sound, as long as it is glorifying God. and 3. Being able to pray out loud. I had a little practice on the third during my life group last semester, but I still am not comfortable doing it in a group that I don't know. It was really good, and the leader was amazing and I love his story.
Then us three went on a walk.
We talk about the most random, DISGUSTING things. But that is why I love them. We can all be totally ourselves around eachother. We are so close, it's like we are related.
After our walk we went to Redbox and rented 'Megamind.' Which, for those who don't know is about a blue guy with a ginormous forehead. By the time we finally got to Becca's to watch it it was nearly twelve.
We decided we all needed massages, so we made a chain and did it like in middle school. Then we laid on her bed and semi-watched it while Jacob made obnoxious bodily functions and references to bodily functions. I love them
HOPEFULLY we will all be going on a short trip together in the next couple weeks. HOPEFULLY. Even if it was just us three that would be good.
They are my faves.

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